Currently Listening to: Hozier – Take Me to Church
Here’s an honest entry. I’m going to be a little vulnerable here and open up. I have been lazy. The thought of updating my site was such an overwhelming feeling that I felt discouraged every time I thought about it. It wasn’t until I finally decided to put my foot down and updated EVERYTHING I’ve done in the past couple years. What have I been up to? Well, I moved to Hong Kong for a year since I was discouraged by the lack of work in Canada. I also came back several months ago because I realized Hong Kong wasn’t for me anymore. Passion killing in some sense. It’s been reinvigorated lately due to pilot season! It’s funny how things work. It was the moment I decided to finally update my website that jump started everything. I became proactive and in doing so, not only did I update my website, I managed to edit my own demo reel. I then proceeded to have my business cards designed and printed off. I started nailing my auditions. I’ve even set up a couple meetings that could possibly take me on a new adventure. Had I not updated any of my work, these meetings would not have been possible. I am feeling way more confident about being an actor so long as I stay proactive. The problem, and here’s the part where I have to be brutally honest here, was me. I felt entitled. I felt that I was some hot shot coming out of acting school that deserved every part. When I didn’t get the part, I was offended and blamed others and not myself. These last couple years have been enlightening for me. I’m glad I made the trip to Hong Kong only to realize it wasn’t for me. Coming back was a choice. I was getting work but it wasn’t work I wanted to be doing my entire life. There’s a power in that. That I wanted to do it my way. I don’t know if it was the right decision but I’m going with my gut on this one.